A submissive's journey

  • Safe

    You seem cold and hard,

    Steel like, unrelenting

    I know the combination

    Open you up, and crawl right in

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  • The gift

    Holding all my worries and uncertainty tenderly like a child. I trust and hand you this precious gift in a moment of complete vulnerability. Gradually at first then all at once – a flow of warmth and peace envelops the space that is left, a knowing that this is a safe and secure place to be and serve.

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  • This is a Game

    This is the game.

    I am choosing to play.

    I choose because I am enjoying it.

    I am not really desperate. I am choosing to act that way.

    I am not really willing to do anything. I choose which things I will do.

    In the game you love me, you own me. You cherish your toy.

    I am enjoying my sexuality instead of being ashamed of it.

    I do what feels good and I should feel good about that.

    But it is still a game. It does not define all that I am or even who I am.

    I can choose to stop playing at any time.

    There is power in choice. I do not give up my power. I will however give control to someone who has earned it.

  • Random Thoughts

    Who am I? Am I the successful professional person that I have been and can be again? Am I this lost, confused and broken girl that has not been able to get past her past? Am I the dirty slut who can only be loved if I am sexually servicing a man? Am I a sweet cute girl who twirls and laughs in the sunshine?

    Can I be loved?

    Dirty Slut, filth whore. I am being paid with attention. I will get on my knees for it, beg for it, open my mouth wide for it. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do, I am desperate and needy.

  • Daily Tasks

    Mister has asked me to do many things. I gladly do them, even if I am hesitant or nervous, feeling comfort in my submission. Some of these are humiliating, some soothing, some training and some, like todays, are warm.

    Think of three things that you are happy about.

    This seems simple. Deceivingly simple.

    Things that make me happy

    • Water – Rivers, Lakes, Creeks, oceans
    • Forest – in the old trees, with the ground littered with deadfall and pine needles, soft muskeg beneath my feet
    • Rocks – nature and power, I can feel the energy of ages

    But my mind is always over thinking. This is something that *makes* me happy, but is it something I am happy about? I am happy that they exist, but I’m not sure that was the intent.

    Things that I need to be happy

    • Trust/Truth – honesty is paramount to me
    • Knowledge – I love learning new details and tidbits, even if I wont remember them for long
    • Family/Connection – blood or those I’ve let in. I need these people

    Again, things that I *need* not necessarily what I am happy about.

    Things that I am happy about

    • I am happy that I have friends and family that I can trust, who I believe are honest with me, who I’ve shown parts of my true self
    • I am happy that I am healthy enough to enjoy all the nature that makes me happy. I am also getting healthier every day
    • I am happy that I am at a stage in life that is stable and allows me to better myself

    This – feels – right

    Thank you Mister for encouraging me to see the happiness around me

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  • Things I like about sucking cock

    ✨Running my tongue up and down the shaft and feeling every vein

    ✨That first drop of precum – so tasty

    ✨The moment that the tip passes the back of my mouth and into my throat – so satisfying

    ✨Hearing the cock owners ragged breathing as they get closer to relief

    ✨The slight embarrassment and helplessness when I am being forcefully face fucked

    ✨Edging the cock and hovering with my mouth so close to the tip that my breath is felt, occasionally flicking my tongue and teasing the tip

    ✨Cum – whether it’s deep in my throat, in my mouth, or all over my face or body

    ✨Being slapped in the face and teased with the cock when all I want is it in my mouth

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  • Reasons to allow Princess to cum

    1. Princess is always trying to be a very good girl and cumming makes her happy which makes Mister happy.

    2. Mister loves to make Princess orgasm so much she shakes and begs to stop.

    3. Princess’s jar needs more pearls for contrast. We must make it pretty for Mister.

    4. Princess should put her new waterproof blanket to good use. Mister wouldn’t want her to have spent money needlessly.

    5. Mister loves the cuddly and content subby that princess becomes after orgasming

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  • Benefits of a Denial Weekend

    1. Maintain a subby mindset. Every minute being reminded of who’s Pretty Princess I am.

    2. Entertains Mister to watch Princesses showing of self-restraint and begging skills

    3. No laundry 😉

    Ways to tease Princess on Denial weekend

    1. Thorough spanking and breast slapping while making Princess hump.

    2. Princess must have the remote vibe in and Mister randomly or continuously turning it off and on or to different levels.

    3. Magic Wand – just above the clit while wearing clamps and plugged.

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  • Why humping is better than toys or fingers:


    It makes Mister happy
    It makes princess embarrassed… which makes Mister happy
    No cleaning up with mouth
    It gets princess more needy and frustrated, which pleases Mister
    There are so many surfaces to try and they are free


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  • I was so horny most of the afternoon, thinking about doing my task for you. By the time I got all my chores done, I was exhausted. But not too exhausted to pick up Baloo.

    Instead of taking off my bra and panties like usual… I left them and my socks on. Something about being color coordinated really had me feeling sexy and hot.

    I pulled my breasts out the top of the bra and had my panties around my thighs. By the time I pulled them down they were already wet. I thought about maybe gagging myself with them, but remembered you said no other toys. I wasn’t sure if that would count, but I decided to be safe rather than potentially disappoint you.

    I didn’t use lube this time. I varied between slowly inching it in and licking. I really was wet enough it didn’t take long. The slow build up to getting Baloo in (mostly, damn it’s big) had me close enough to cumming that it only took a few quick strokes to get there.

    I sucked and licked Baloo clean, marvelling at the girth, wondering if I’d ever get to a point where I could put more of it in my mouth than what amounts to just the tip. Luckily my tongue took care of the rest.

    Thinking about the weekend and how much you enjoyed slapping my breasts, I gave my nipples a couple painful squeezes. Mmmmm delightful.

    Next, I began slowly (tortuously slow) rubbing Baloo against my clit and over my hole. I continued until I was so desperate I was almost shaking. I kind of begged out loud to please be allowed to cum. Three swift hard slaps to my pussy and I was once again cumming, soaking everything.
    No stopping there I went right back to fucking myself with Baloo, holding nothing back and came once more.

    As you like me to, I licked Baloo clean and said my pretty princesses with it in my mouth.

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